Memories........

This is the first ever present I received from my dearest. That was about 5 years ago. Time sure flies.

Speaking of time, she has been telling me, my two weeks here doesn't feel as long as these two days. These last two days that I will be here offshore. I've been trying to prevent myself from thinking like that, not to dwell myself upon the fact that I miss her very much, but well, however I want to hold it back, I still miss her very much....

Just last night, we were talking about whether was it the right thing to do that we commit to ourselves so early. Our age gap is not that big, but we did attach ourselves when she was 16. She mentioned that would there be any difference if we would to have got together later, say two years later when she's 18? Frankly I don't know. These are the possibilities that I think could happen:

1. Our feelings for each other could have maintained and because we are just friends, both of us dare not make any moves, and that could stay on forever - in other words, we could be just friends forever.

2. Our feelings for each other might die off as we could see that it is not heading anywhere and we might just give up on each other. In other words, she might have another guy or I might have another girl instead.

3. We could maintain our feelings, keep it that way for another few years, and then we get attached when she's 18 or something. But I really wonder, would it be the same? The thing is, what I see is that if that would to happen, we might have gotten so used to our friendship feelings that we might not share the moment where Ps. would say, the honeymoon period, when everything is sweet and sun is shining, birds are chirping. And this is something she cherish a lot!

4. The two of us maintain our feelings for a very very very long time, but dare not make any move in fear that it could jeopardize out friendship, and this could lead us to not fall for other people, and maintain 'bujang' until we're in our late twenties, only finally willing to share our feelings for each other, and getting attached during our late twenties.

5. This is another scenario of number 4. The same thing happen, we stay bujang for a long time, then finally willing to let go, and go look for other people. But is that healthy? We might not love the other person as much as we love each other!

6. I think I watch too much TVB dramas. Hmmm.....

But all in all, I think I still made the right decision to ask her to be my gf at that time. I know that the fact at that time she was still young, and that causes many problems in our relationship. Many bumps appeared due to that fact. However, we managed to share our romantic period, we shared many ups and downs, many happy experiences, many sad experiences, and I think this has shaped and concreted this strong bond between us.

It has been almost four years now. And I'm not regretting it one bit. It has been my sweetest, most bitter, sometimes sour or spicy, and yes, salty too, type of relationship. I cherish this relationship a lot and if there's anything that comes in my way, I'm willing to go all out to protect it. Even though it has been so long, and many would think, four years already and probably the honeymoon period has died off, but the two of us are still very fond for each other. We are still going through our sweet, sour/spicy, bitter and salty moments. And I love every bit of it.

I don't know why, but this is something I just feel like sharing.

I never regretted all the things that has happened in the past 4 years. I believed everything happened for a reason, and that reason is to concrete our relationship to be a strong one.

I love you dear.